Do I miss you or do i NOT?

That is the precise question, which translates to To Blog or NOT To Blog?...to take it to literal meaning and disect the words and then put it back again to form the statement...that is exactly how my brain is working this morning...complicated :P

I realised that I have already neglected you for a while, and looking at my old posts, re reading them made me realise how emotional I can be..and that stopped me for a moment and got me thinking about "human emotions"

Lately I have realised how my friends around me are burdened by their on emotional hurricanes and re reading my older posts, as cheesy as they are, i realised that i have also been there and it is not difficult for one to create their on emotional hurricanes..... and just put your physical self in a hurricane, all you can see is dark clouds and a big huge storm approaching.. The only person though, that can help you out of this vicious hurricane storm, is none other but yourself, and at the same time, the person who created this vicious hurricane storm is none other but ourselves... so my next question is, do you want to see the hurricane or a rainbow?

It is really all about human habitual patterns...living all by yourself, coming home to an empty house and sleeping on alone seem like a sanctuary....then someone else comes along to break that anomaly or a regular adopted pattern, throws the system into manic mode to readjust to the new changes..and once the system is adjusted, coming home to an empty house and sleeping alone no longer seems like a sanctuary but all it spells is loneliness.. that is exactly how i felt last night, when i got home...as much as i needed the space and alone time...it did felt lonely again...ate dinner by myself, watch tv and laughed at the tv program....and i stopped to think, why did i even bother laughing out loud when there is no one around me to share with...weird...sleeeping peacefully by oneself is luxury haven, but waking up to your loved one next to you, offsets all the benefits of living alone...

So humans are after all creatures of habits and not necessarily enjoy changes that are too rapid...once their system adjust to one the switching back and forth would throw the system into confusion and manic mode... and as the system age, its flexibility is affected and so is their capacity to contain the information downloaded/offloaded from their and into their systems..

so are you in a confused manic phase today?